some moments with myself

So, finally the day had arrived. Ppl wished, n I said thanks. N had a great time with myself, doing most obvious work one lonely person can do with himself; explore urself. Looked back to the years, thought of from where I had started and where I m right now. Wat I was supposed to do and wat I m doing. Wat I have been trying for and wat I have got. N from there, one thought comes, wat I have done for the others and wat others have done for me. Here, u've have two choices, either u expect the others to do something, or u don't. and again, in both the cases, considering two options that they do something for you or they don't; there are four possible combinations. U don't expect and u get, u don't expect and u don't get, u expect and u get, u expect and u don't get. so out of these four cases, there's only one case which can make u happy; that is; u don't expect someone to do something for u, n still he/she does… that's called a real surprise!!! Otherwise, u don't expect and u don't get doesn't make a difference. U expect and u get, nothing new in that. And u expect and u don't get, nothing worse than that!!!! Ya, so where were we? Wat I've got and wat I've not. So, wat I've got: nothing; wat I've not got: something that I wanted. Same usual case like any other person on the earth, after all, this is wat we all are living for; the something. Everyone is running behind something, but nobody knows wat is it; it's jus something! U're in office, u want to go home. U come to home, u're getting bored, u want to go office. U're bored with food, u're bored with daily life u're with usual movies music internet everything. Though, these things r something u cant live without, but u need more and more things so that u can switch between them very frequently; jus to kill boredom.

Sometimes, it sounds so funny, how can someone talk to himself. It's like, dividing urself into two different personalities, one is in favour of u, the other is just not. Now, let this two guys fight ur case. One will say whatever u've done is right. Other will say stop it right there. One will ask u to take a path which satisfies ur emotional needs, one will give u quantitative analysis of ur actions. N great but unnoticed thing bout this fight is; in the end, u will shut both guys up, stay where u r, n jus drag ur life with the same stuff everyday. We never listen to anybody, all we need is, some excuse to complete another day of life. Very rare ppl live because they know time's never gonna come back. Rest all, live because they've got to live.

Anyway, enough crapping. ciya, and hmmm, happy b'day myself!